in the interest of authenticity…

this is such an unsettled week for me.  i feel depleted and uninspired and everything i write sounds like garbage.  adult life stuff is encroaching, plus i’m getting over a cold or horrible allergies, which are eating away at my brain so i’m unfocused.

complain, complain, complain.  excuses, excuses, excuses.  whine, whine, whine. 

all in all, it’s a reactive week, not a proactive one.

so why bother posting something as boring as this?  because doing so is a daily habit and i need to show up regardless.  it’s an issue of quantity and training my brain to produce routinely.  in goggling that concept for proof, i found the following articles, which sort of help my case.  they're important reads anyway.

the second is by Ryan Holiday, the best-selling author of “the obstacle is the way,” and who, by all accounts, seems awesome. 

i’m really excited to read a short book i just got a book from the library, “steal like an artist” by Austin Kleon.

and 14 ounces of coconut oil arrived for me yesterday.  it’s for oil pulling, the ancient Ayurvedic practice of swishing oil around in your mouth every morning for cleansing.  i already do yoga and use a neti pot, tongue scraper and an acupressure mat, why not add another variable?

the largest 14-oz. jar in the world.

the largest 14-oz. jar in the world.

it’s sitting on a table across from my desk and every so often i check on it with sidelong glances.  yup, it’s still there.  it’s freaking me out because it’s more liquid-y than anticipated.  i can’t believe i agreed to try this.  is oil-pulling anxiety a thing?  so you have an adventure update to look forward to.

give me some space this week and i’ll have some awesome stuff next week.  promise.